to be and not to be

When I started making theater, I just wanted to be on a stage. I got a very small part, there were two people watching: my mother and my brother. It was great!
Then I became a slightly bigger part, there were 30 people, even someone I didn't know. It felt great
I got a leading role, one hundred people came to see, they even paid for their ticket! Great
I landed at an important company. Touring Abroad! Big theaters, hundreds of people, complete strangers to me, expensive tickets. It was still great!
But not more Great than that first time before my mother and my brother..
What if there is no relation between quantity and quality, as far as audience is concerned? At concerts, the audience becomes a mass; in the theater - where the eye moves freely - everyone sees his own play. The audience is one person, always.
So maybe the challenge is not More and Bigger, but Someone or No-one..
To be and not to be.. that's the answer!

30 min
première 10/07/1997
Decompositie - Utrecht